Mental Health

One of the things I have noticed starts to decline when I am stressed out or my anxiety would be at its peak in the past was memory lost. Short term memory lost is very common in individuals that experience a series of traumatic events. Its been 3 years since my PTSD took a hold on me, I didn’t understand what I was going through and how the connection between my mental health and physical health were being impacted by circumstances in my life that had literally brought me down to my knees. It wasn’t until early 2022 that I picked up on the clues that maybe it was more than just anxiety and depression. I started recognizing the pattern, the triggers and listening to what my body was desparetly trying to communicate with me. I allowed myself and put myself in environments that were not healthy, and my body’s reaction was flight or fight survival instincts but I would contradicted it every time until eventually it led me into an eating disorder, insomnia among other things. Now, looking back these were all signs of PTSD but I overlooked them. I had learned about PTSD associated with War vets but never with every day life.

Something that helps me stay balance and keep my mental health in check is participating in hobbies that give me an adrenaline rush like dance, core, fitness, bicycling, and roller skating. Dancing helps release tension you hold in your body and movement helps you open up and express yourself. Half the battle is recognize your triggers, who your around and what your doing when anxiety spikes. I slept 10 hours but I still felt drained, during this time I also was codependent to caffeine. This is something I am still working on, and although I don’t need 3 coffees a day anymore, girl still need the first sip of heaven to start her day..